The Ever Changing Tides

Today I woke up invigorated, something has shifted and it feels like the dawning of a new reality!! By 7:00 p.m. last night I was ready to call it a day. Felt a little early to crawl into bed and risk being up for the day at 3:00 a.m. so I trudged on keeping myself busy. By 9:45 p.m. I was laying in bed, crystal in hand to do a meditation and clear my mind with the intent of some deep, restful sleep. I felt myself relax deeply, my mind slow and my breath deepen. I was drifting somewhere else. Then I put my crystal on the night stand and settled in for sleep. Instead of calm I felt an energy coursing though my body that was electric, my mind with rapid fire thought. At some point I moved to the floor and did some stretches hoping to move the energy out. I grabbed a pillow and laid there on the floor. I found it remarkable how comfortable I was and how relaxed. I was oblivious to how hard the floor should be, I drifted between electric energy and states of serene calm for what felt like hours. Finally I returned to my bed, drifted off and then popped back into a wide awake state. I often use times when I wake in the night to pray or talk to my higher power. However, I had been awake so much last night and felt like I had said all I needed to say, so I asked “what do you want me to know?’. I didn’t get an answer but felt as though something had opened. I had let my higher power know that I was open and receptive to learning the answer. At some point I finally drifted into sleep. When I woke my first thought was I am still tired. I laid there and felt energy course through me, this time it felt invigorating. I knew immediately I must get up and get moving, there are important things to be done today. Today is a re-birthing, a time of nourishing and allowing. Today I move into what I have been desiring. Now I fully let go of the past and what was to create room for what is to be. What is that? I have no idea but I know that it will be an amazing adventure of discovery. In this moment I feel light and free, fully capable of creating something beautiful. I came across a comment that we must first stop talking about and then stop thinking about something in order to release it. I have recently had a few things pop up in my life that must be there to be cleared out yet rather than letting them go I have allowed them to over take me, I had felt myself spiraling down deeper and deeper. I was allowing myself to be pulled into someone else’s energy, to become something other than who I am. Today it is time to say good bye to those old things and thank them for their lessons. In this moment there is choice! Today is to be another cloudy, rainy day yet somehow it feels like permission to take care of me. To spend more time on little areas of my life that get neglected. Today I will take time to sip on my favorite tea, listen to some music, enjoy my freshly arranged lilacs and dream of what is to come. Dream of the wild woman who is being birthed. Dream of adventures to be had, people I will meet, experiences I will have and magic I will create. When I put aside all of the shoulds I am supposed to do and be I see so much magic in the world. When I am able to see that magic I also see the massive amount of love, kindness and generosity that is in the world. Within that magical state I feel so blessed to be on this planet, at this time, soaking in all of the beauty. Life is grand when we allow ourselves to dwell within the the mystery of life.


Published by ravenfire2020

I am on a mission to claim my wholeness, to change the legacy of dysfunction in my family and discover who I really am rather than what I have been told I am. I left the corporate world to live a slower, more simple life. I am a chicken mama, as well as a mama to four amazing humans. I am blessed to be married to someone who has supported me in my journey and been there to hold my hand when it gets crazy. I love to learn, to read, to hear peoples' stories. I love the changing of the seasons, to get lost in the woods, to soak up the sun and the moon light. Each day is a gift and I am striving to live it fully and aware of the many blessings and miracles that show up in my life. Welcome to my Journey to Wholeness, I hope you will find inspiration and share your journey along the way!

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